Mu$!c R0* !!

2011-11-20T02:25:00.001-08:00

Have you ever feel the guilt of not making someone happy because it meant taking someone else happiness away?

2011-11-20T02:18:00.000-08:00

The sad thing is that I know I could had make you the happiest man on earth.Could make you happy like no other guys could,
And it's guilt that I didnt give you happiness.
Selfish thats what I was.
after all we've been through.
That empty cold dark shell of yours you're hiding in.
I could have but I didn't.
And even so, even now, if I were to go back, I know I won't change a thing that happened.

2011-11-20T01:46:00.000-08:00

Xellia thought she was the only special girl.She could feel jealousy brewing all inside her when she look at the photos.

You gotta keep it controlled,she tought.

Sure, she's coping,managing somehow.She didn't want to feel disappointed all over again.Having scars sewn up.She was thinking of revenge but it seems so far nothing could make him jealous.She could only think of a single weapon to make him lose his cool.But it was too lethal, too cruel to be used.But then again,he probably won't feel anything.

Sighing.She feel like running as fast as she can.Wanting to feel the wind howling pass her ears.Wanting to clear her mind.Wanting to block everything from the outside world at the moment.

Deep down,she knew that this anger,this jealousy was only temporary.Knew it would be over soon.She laughed.A pained laughed.

Time to listen to some high beat songs , she tought, turning up the volume to blast the music.

2011-11-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

you were right all along.It was indeed much harder to control the jealousy emotion considering his personality.it sure is tough.managing,somehow.haha.

2011-10-19T05:34:00.000-07:00

Grrrrr....how can you be sooooo cute? It's a crime! >.<...

By my side

2011-10-04T07:00:00.000-07:00

I walk down this path with you by my side.
I hope when I reach the end of this path, you'll still be by my side.<3.

2011-09-23T07:38:00.000-07:00

During lunch, I noticed a family.
The mother was talking to her toddler.
The father was playing with his iphone.
Sad to say, its a common sight nowadays.
Hmm..I wonder what happened to 'family time'?

2011-09-09T22:05:00.000-07:00

funny how nobody seems to be around when you really need someone to talk to.. =(.

2011-08-06T01:47:00.000-07:00

The most romantic thing that ever happened to a girl ,
was when the guy said 'I'm yours' with the Jason Mraz song 'I'm yours' playing in the background.

Flowing Tears - Xellia

2011-08-06T01:31:00.000-07:00

Cry cry...
Tears of sorrow
How long has it been
Yet I don't know where this
sadness came from
Passing by your tombstone
Giving you white lilies
I know that was your favorite

It's been a few years now
Yet my heart still yearns for you
You are still part of my everyday life
Talk to you at night before going to sleep
Yet miss hearing your heart beat against mine
Wake up alone in the middle of the night
Only to realise you have since
long gone

So why do I still cry
Can anyone tell me why
Whenever I pass by places
that were filled with memories
of you and me
I still cry
Tell me why
Tell me why
It still hurts so bad
It's so long ago
Tears still flow
Peopel stop and stare
Why is this lonely girl crying
Tell me why
These tears still flow

Tears still flowing
At the end of this rainbow
These colourful butterflies
Flutter away
Just within my grasp
Sun rays filter on this window

Standing under this tree
Tears still flow
Smile in these flowing tears
These flowing tears
Toughen my heart
With these flowing tears

Laughter fills the air
Brings back memories
Giggles and shared secrets
Sitting on the swing
Leaves being blown away
From this strong wind
Taking my memories with them
Taking my memories with them

Pissed off

2011-07-17T07:22:00.000-07:00

Does adults think that all teenagers are having 'puppy love' or something? You can't generalise teenagers that ALL teenagers are having 'puppy love while some of us are SERIOUS. Speak for themselves, how many adults are getting a divorce these days? Puppy love seems like a minor problem compare to that. Why the hell get married if you're gonna get a divorce? It doesn't make sense.

Sorry, getting off topic.. Anyways, what I'm trying to say is love is not a plaything. Some of us TEENAGERS DO NOT THINK ITS 'fun' or to 'since everyone's coupling, might as well get involve in some kind of puppy love.Some of us knows how to T-H-I-N-K.We know how to use our brain.We know how to NOT give 'hope' to people whom we have no interest in..jeez..

Seriously, adults these days..*shakes head*. You guys think too lowly of teenagers.

Wanna get emotionally hurt by someone and see how fun it is?=). (Yea.I'm being sarcastic.==)

2011-07-16T09:22:00.000-07:00

Today,while i was taking my dinner..i heard a young girl screamed, and a dog barking.
And just like that, i ran out from the kitchen to out of the house!
seriously i dunno what got into me.I thought that maybe there was a dog fight..or some small kid got bitten by a dog.Its was only after i got out of the house, i didnt hear any scream.Outside, it was just silence,birds chirping. But anyway, I got my bike and just cycled around. But nope, no dogs.Saw three kids cycling thought. Must have been one of them who screamed. Well,I certainly surprised myself when I rushed out of my house without thinking twice.lol.

2011-06-15T09:25:00.001-07:00

I'll don't think I'll be able to forgive myself..

2011-06-06T09:37:00.000-07:00

And I chose the road less taken.
Someday when I look back in the future, I might regret.
But all the decisions I made, made me who I am today.

Parallel - Xellia

2011-05-16T18:58:00.000-07:00

We live parallel lives
Only today did it change
We should never have met
It was already written
That we live parallel lives
Should never have met

I walk down the empty streets
Feeling hollow , not knowing where I'm going
Saw you sitting there
At the bus stop
Sheltered from this rain

No buses came, no buses stop
We were just two strangers
Under this bus stop

You smiled,offered me a towel
Those few moments
You made me laughed
Comfort my sorrow
The rain stoped
We were strangers once again

The next time it rained
You were sitting there waiting
Although you didnt see me
I was at the corner
Watching you
Hidden in the shadows

The next time we meet on the streets
I'll pretend not to know you
We live parallel lives
Never should have met

Superstar - Xellia

2011-04-24T05:13:00.000-07:00

What if I don't like the limelight and you do
Baby you're a super star what should I do

So tell me babe what should I do
Cause I can feel trouble brewing inside
Oh,
I don't like the limelight like the way you do
But baby thats the way you are
I can't take it away even if I wan to
Kiss me and hold me but don't seduce me
Cause I'm your girl
Not one of your fans
With all of the girls screaming about
It's a little wonder how I still remain sane

What am I suppose to do
With a superstar like you
Say i'm a jealous old hag
But what to do
But what to do
I fell for a superstar like you

Get those hate mails from your fans
Didn't say a word
Didn't want you to give up your dream
Told others you're my guy
But what to do
what to do
They didn't believe me
What would a girl like me being with a superstar like you
But what to do
But what to do
I'm only telling the truth
I fell for a superstar like you

What am I suppose to do
With a superstar like you
Say I'm a jealous old hag
But what to do
But what to do
I fell for a superstar like you

Pictures Don't Lie- Xellia

2011-04-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

I saw these pictures
Pictures don't lie
I should have seen it coming
It's like we are in our own world
Pictures can't lie how happy I looked
Pictures can't lie how matchly we are

We look sweet together
Everyone says
But I wont admit it
Not even to myself
I won't admit it

Caught on with the teasing
I should have seen this coming
But you're one playboy I can't fall in love with
Cause if I do
I would really fall and never get up
I might never get up
Losing my senses
I can't get out of control
I wont let it happen

Told myself at night
Who is this guy to me
Why is he in my thoughts
Should I cross this border
Dare I take a risk
Asking myself again and again

Morning came
I am self-controlled
Night came
I lose my way

Told myself at night
Who is this guy to me
Who is this guy to me
Who is this guy to me

These pictures I hung up in my room wall
Find myself staring at a happy me
Pictures can't lie how hapy you looked
I should have seen it coming
I should have it coming
Pictures don't lie

30/03/2011

2011-03-30T05:48:00.000-07:00

I feel so happy..the way we laughed just now..the way we laugh together...I feel like you can be a friend and yet at the same time my special guy..The feeling is so nice, I just cant believe you're mine.You make me love you even more when I see the love in your eyes when you look at me.Touched me straight at my heart. I love you..so very much..

2011-03-12T02:22:00.000-08:00

If you can make emo within a milisecond..then the other can make smile within a milisecond..

2011-03-10T20:46:00.000-08:00

For the past two days,I've been having nightmares.Strange horrifying nightmares.I'll wake up in the middle of the dead night..before going back to sleep..==...

Frustrated

2011-03-10T20:37:00.000-08:00

What am I suppose to do? I dont get why am I so sensitive..DAMN sensitive anyway.. I just..I just hate the fact that the guy is so socialisable..I dont wanna change him..But I feel so mad sometimes..If I said out loud,I'm afraid he'll get emo which is the last thing I want.If I keep to myself,I'm gonna burst one day or get it controlled,damn thats a sad thing..Hints,dude never gonna get it..==..Bbbrrrr..chocolate and blogging's gonna cool my uphill and downhill emotions. Break up is never a solution,never is,never will..haix..feel much better now.

2011-03-03T04:11:00.000-08:00

I have come a long way.. Sometimes I would look back and couldn't believe it wasn't a dream..

Feelings

2011-02-19T08:20:00.000-08:00

I think..the best feeling in this world..is when you know there's someone who loves you deeply..and cares for you too..touches and filles your heart with emotions..to me..thats the best feeling..

2011-02-17T05:41:00.000-08:00

Great..I hate it when this happens..=(...

Miniature puppets

2011-02-07T00:07:00.000-08:00

Controlled...

Its sad..that we cant choose whom we choose to be with..status..is important.It doesnt matter which century you're in.This 'status difference' thing STILL does play a role.Just because some women prefers older men doesnt meant their children have to be like that.Its their own free will whom they choose to be with.Its not like the parents are the one who's marrying the guy/girl.Well,I dont care.They shouldn't put any restriction on who we should be with and who's not.It isn't right.Their opinion matters but thats as far it goes.

Workaholic?

2011-02-06T21:02:00.000-08:00

Yeap..I'M back! within just a short few hours.Anyways,I'm laughing at myself now,mum calls me to eat brunch while I'm doing some research.Its funny cause you see how movies shows these workaholics and I feel like acting just like them! (at the moment anyway).. Wonder if I'll be workaholic in the future..that'll be horrible but possible...==

Black and White

2011-02-06T07:31:00.001-08:00

Black and white By G-na.I personally think its one of the sweetess music video I've ever saw.Girls and guys can go awwww.. because its so sweet.(again,its my opinion). Jinwoon from 2AM feat in this mv.I think he's quite good looking.haha. Guys are like black and girls are like white? Hah! I agree with that! -until next time-

Going MAD

2011-02-06T06:54:00.000-08:00

Seriously..sometimes I just can't believe some people.I am getting so pissed sometimes I feel like bursting or rather screaming!! But ahh..well I cant do that because everyone would think I am mad or something and I cant tell them how I really feel cause they'll nag more and piss me off more. She says I have to sleep early?sure fine..I can do that.But she had to go on and on just because they didnt follow exactly what she said?her voice drowns the room until goodness knows what time I slept.And here is she saying we have to sleep early.Puh lease!We had to listen to her because she nags us when she's angry.And she wonders why we dont want to sleep with her? I feel like laughing sometimes..if you dont let us to hang out then just dont let us go for goodness sake.Its so much better than regretting and complaining after we get back.My dad is so right. So keep to yourself,dont argue,let her have the last word then can you obtain some peace. Phew..okay..I feel tons better after writing this.(Its my way of releasing my anger).==

Stress Out

2011-01-22T03:53:00.000-08:00

T.T...My second day of college and I"m already stressesd out.haix.College life is supposed to be fun?Wow..thats's an understament.Hopefully I can stay awake throughout my college life.I really need to study hard and smart to ace this college.

On another hand,I am falling so hard that I know if you were to leave me now.It would hurt badly and I would be heartbroken.That how bad it is now.I hope it can last.But from experience, I'm not gonna hope..

16.01.2010

2011-01-17T00:36:00.000-08:00

When I am connected to someone..I have this tendency to dream about that person..It happens..but rarely..Last night, was my first dream of a you. Lol.Guess that proves I'm falling hard huh? College is starting tomorrow! Yesss...privacy! but I somewhat dont feel excited..just a little nervous..haha..

2010-12-28T05:11:00.000-08:00

1.LOVE LOVE LOVE - After School.

Its's not bad..rather cheerfull song actually.=).To those who are down or emo out there,I recommend this song! Certainly cheers me up anyway.. Their happiness is addictive.lol.

2.Empty - JYJ

Dbsk the group separated and now three of them join up to form JYJ.Dbsk has got be my very first korean group I listen to.They're pratically seniors in the now uprising k-pop generation.Nice song by JYJ btw.as usual isn't it?what do you expect but great songs from former Dbsk members.*shrugs*.

2010-12-26T07:33:00.000-08:00

What I thought was dead..I guess..I'm starting to feel a little of it..a little emotions building..borning again..

Christmas

2010-12-26T07:29:00.000-08:00

This year..save me from tears..I'm giving it to someone special..

Emotionless - Xellia

2010-12-21T23:42:00.000-08:00

Here I am once again
Back where I started
Back to being emotionless
Like no other
Losing human feelings
Once again emotion-dead

Back to being inhuman
Are you the next person
Who's gonna turn me human
Bring me to a world
Filled with emotions

Chorus:because right now,
I'm emotionless,
I'm emotionless
I don't feel anything
I'm emotionless
I'm emotionless

Stuck in this never ending void
Lost in time and space
I feel no pain
No sadness,whatsoever,
I feel emotionless
I don't feel anything

Here I am once again
Back where I started
Here we go again
Back to being emotionless
I don't feel anything

Here I am once again
Back where I started
Here we go again
Back to being emotionless
I'm emotionlees
I'm emotionless

CHORUS:Because right now,
I'm emotionless
I'm emotionless
I don't feel anything
I'm emotionless
I'm emotionless

Tell me,
Who's gonna
Bring me to a world
Filled with emotions

Funny how things turns out..

2010-12-10T07:12:00.000-08:00

Yeap..that's right..I'm back to being emotionless inhuman me..
Why is it that I can't FEEL anything seriously?O.O...
I think my heart is dead for now..emotion-dead I mean.great..I better start devolping some emotions -again- or some poor dude is going to suffer..=(..

Funny how some roles can be swap in plays..
Funny how things turns out..
Funny how you have to expect the unexpected..

2010-11-04T22:06:00.000-07:00

Don't look back and leave..Because I have no regrets for loving you..

I like it - enrique iglesias feat pitbull

2010-10-23T03:52:00.000-07:00

Well..I had a great day yesterday.One of the most fun day I had in a lllooooonnngggg while.haha. Trying to smile these days..cheering myself up..=]. Apparently to some people I get emo easily and dont smile that often. Hmm..'I spent long nights erasing by myself,erasing my thoughts a thousand times..'.My life's getting clearer and clearer haru haru.My snitches are mostly sewn.Patches mostly covered.The tears are drying..'.There's no turning back..I'm just gonna take the good memories and leave on..I can bear it in some way..wait,I AM doing that for a few weeks already.lol. My study life's getting whoa..hectic..everyday tuition after tuition..including WEEKENDS! T.T..ahh well..suffer for a month exactly.T.T

Couldn't find out what was the song.I only heard the singer sang 'baby I like it,the way you move on the floor.'Asked around my friends but they also weren't sure of the singer.But anyways found the song already.It was 'I like it' by enrique iglesias feat pitbull.Its a nice song.ONE LOVE ONE LOVE!! lol..

I miss you

2010-08-24T04:47:00.000-07:00

Forget about me,
I will only break your heart,
If I truly love you,
I want to see you happy,
Please smile for me..

Because I love the way you lie

2010-08-22T04:37:00.000-07:00

Well..things been emotional lately...My heart and mind is confused,angry at myself and sad..? Things are starting to get well..complicated..I think I got it bad..find myself thinking about dynamite all the time..which is really frustrating and I have no idea why.==. The other I slept with the thoughts of,crying softly,whispering his name..thinking of my past..probably its better this way,if you truly love the person,you would want to see them happy right?

Anyways, I am seriously annoyed at myself about dynamite.I find myself getting a little emo if we didnt talk for that day.Yea..I think its a crush..not sure how bad is it though.Neither does he.Its actually a little scary to find that we have a lot of things in common,a lot of similarities.SPOOKY!!.. He's anti sony.(I used to be one).How many people you know are anti sony? A lot of bro and sis,different schools,eldest,likes listening to music? I guess yea,like my friend said,we can talk a lot.lol.oh and he's also nursing a broken heart,although was earlier than my own.I find myself laughing when I'mm talking to him but..is this love or infatuation? The second sounds more likely..

P.s. I love you: On the hightea that day, I lost the necklace's pendant you gave me.I was very very sad as I really really love that necklace(it was something you've gotten for me),we were on the rocks and the lost pendant seems...like a sign..that its over..

Dynamite

2010-08-08T04:05:00.000-07:00

Sigh..I cant explain my feelings right now..its complicated...you make me happy and i'm so afraid to fall for you,dynamite.Just so afraid of getting crushed.. " Eventually" was what you said.And you told me maybe its good news..but are you going to break my heart just like the last one did..? Should I give it a try..dynamite what are you waiting for.. Dynamite,I think i'm falling for you..

One Better Day - MBLAQ

2010-06-25T04:36:00.000-07:00

Sigh..these days Im dissapointed with myself.I asked myself what and where went wrong? I truly love you but it is better for me to let go..?Love is pain,love is over..but against my better logic,I am sad to say I dont mind..emotions wash over me everyday..and I asked myself again and again why did I fell so hard for you only to be treated this way now?i have no regrets loving you. It'll be a long time if I'll ever trust a guy anymore..no more pain..no more illusions..

If you're reading this..

2010-06-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

I want to tell you I'm always by your side..always there when you need me..I swear i'll try my best to cheer you up..smile my dear sweet baby for i want you to know how much you mean to me..well..lol..i guess i just wanna say i really love you..

At World's End - Xellia

2010-05-28T06:21:00.003-07:00

Listen to your heart,
That's me in there whispering,
That's how deep I feel for you,
Even though unseen forces threaten to tear us apart,
It'll only pull us closer,
Bound us together

Chorus:
I'll wait for you,
Always be waiting,
Even if the world is to end,
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you

I don't wanna say goodbye,
Oh don't say goodbye,
We'll make this work,
We gotta stay strong,
Irrestible Forces can't tear us apart

Together we'll make it happen,
Even if its the end of the world,
I won't say goodbye,
If I could make a separate world,
I'll bring you there,
We'll live together

You're in my thoughts before i sleep
First in my thoughts when i wake up
I think about you every second,
And I miss you every moment when I'm not with you,
Loneliness and emptiness,
Sorrunds me when its raining,
Rain and more rain,
Only reminds me of you

Doesn't matter how far you are,
You'll always be in my heart,
However far,
You'll always be in my heart,
That's all it matters

Chorus:
As Long as I can breath,
As long as air flow through my lungs,
I'll continue to love you,
I'll wait for you,
Always be waiting,
Even if the world is to end
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you

You're a part of a me
You're much more than just a friend
I'll wait for you
Always be waiting
Even if the world is to end
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you
As Long as air flow through my lungs
I'll continue to love you
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you

Missing You

2010-05-01T05:53:00.000-07:00

I was a lonely girl before,
Wihout you,I became lonelier,
Words can't describe how much I miss you..

2010-05-01T05:34:00.000-07:00

Am I really happy..? Or am I acting happy..? I'm confused..

This is For you - Xellia

2010-04-18T03:50:00.000-07:00

I have no regrets for loving you,
Thanks for all the great memories my dear,
I'll always remember those moments as long as I live,
Even though it didnt work out,
You'll always be in my heart,
You're my BFF,
Best friends forever right? =]

2010-04-02T22:44:00.000-07:00

As others pray my dad's eldest brother,I glanced around me.It was my first time visiting my uncle.He was a 50 something single man when he passed away.According my other relatives,he was the one who named me and a few other cousins.
Something caught my attention,one of the boxes near my uncle's box.A picture of a girl,happily smiling.A stuff toy was hugging her crenate pot.I counted the dates.She was only 23 when she died.A wave of sadness wash over me.Such a pretty young girl,who still had a long path had she lived.
Another box caught my attention.A young boy who looked like a kid.he died at the age of 14.I couldnt believe so many people died at such a young age.I could feel tears treatening to fall fom my eyes.Its just so sad.
My sister motioned me aside.At a small corner,a picture of a young small girl.A baby barely a year or two.A doll beside it.A baby who can be someone important or live a happy life,gone.There were few others..some 17..some 20.. Of course,there were also old people.

After seeing this,I come to realise that we wont know when our life would get cut short.So I guess we should start living everyday to its fullest.Life's unpredictable they say.

Cycle-Lesson To Be Learn

2010-03-06T04:28:00.000-08:00

There were 2 guys who wants to hook up their friend,H with girl A(a year younger than the trio).H's two friends pitied H and thought he is lonely as the rest of them were already in a relationship.Little did they know that H is already in a relationship with Y.Of course,no one did as it was a secret relationship.His friends found out though when the issue got huge.

Meanwhile,a girl B has a crush on a guy,P.(Rumour has it that P used to like Y).

One day,after chatting with P,B noticed Y in a distant looking emo.B immediately got worried,did she made her classmate and friend Y emo by talking to P?What she didnt know that Y is actually emoing cause of the rumour of her boyfriend H and girl A.

Now B would still be emoing if her brother hadn't told her about H's secret relationship with girl Y.Her brother was one of the guys that was trying to hook up H with girl A.==.Which is the

root of this problem.

Btw,A wasn't even interested in H and neither was H in A.

AND girl Y now is planning to break up with H. Oh,and B got to be with P wihout any worries.

Conclusion,Its better not to hook any of your friends up with someone.It just bring disasters most of the time.You'll never know if they're already in a relationship or already attracted to someone else.

Ours...

2010-03-05T02:55:00.000-08:00

I gazed up into the calm sky,
With the earth's skin to my back,
You were next to me with arms around me,
I feel so safe,so secure,
Sure that nothing could spoil this moment,
I smiled looking at you,
And you gave me a smile that warmed my heart,
And that had the power to stop time,
I closed my eyes for a moment,
When I opened my eyes,
Only a brief moment,
When I opened my eyes,
I woke up on my bed,alone,
But you'll always be in my heart..

Prisoner Of Love(Eng Lyrics) - Utada Hikaru

2010-02-14T05:01:00.000-08:00

I'm a prisoner of love,
Prisoner of love,
Just a prisoner of love,
I'm a prisoner of love,
A prisoner of love,

With an indifferent face you tell a lie,
Laughing until you feel sick,
You said "Let's have nothing but fun"
Feeling blue over desiring the impossible,
Everyone's seeking tranquility,
You're struggling,but you' had enough,
Now you're chasing after a shadow of love,
Since the day you appeared,
My dull "everyday"s have begun to shine,
Now I'm able to think,"feeling loneliness,being in pain - they're not so bad"

I'm prisoner of love,
Just a prosioner of love,
Prisoner of love,
Prisoner of love,
I'm a prisoner of love,

Through the painfull times and healthy times,
Stormy days and sunny days,let's walk on together,
I'm gonna tell you the truth,
I chose an unforeseeably painfull path,
And you came to support me,
You're the only one I can call a friend,
Fake displays of strength and avariance have become meaningless,
I've been in love with you since that day,
When I'm free with time to spare,there's no life in being alone,
I'm just a prisoner of love,
Just a prisoner of love,

Oh...just a little more,
Don't you give up,
Oh don't ever abandon me,
If the cruelty of reality tries to tear us apart,
We'll be drawn more closely to one another,
Somehow,somehow,I have a feeling we'll be able to stand firm,
I'm a prisoner of love,
Just a prsioner of love,

Everyday banalities quickly begins to shine briliantly,
You stole my heart that day,
Loneliness and pain I thought I could handle with,
I'm just a prisoner of love,
Just a prisoner of love,
I'm a prisonr of love,
Prisoner of love,
Prisoner of love,
I'm just a prisoner of love,
I'm just a prisoner of love,

Stay with me, Stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, Stay with me,
Don't leave me again,
Stay with me, Stay with me,
My baby, say you love me,
Stay with me, Stay with me,
Don't leave me again,
Stay with me, Stay with me,
Don't leave me again.

Take 1,2,3

2010-02-13T10:37:00.000-08:00

Everyone's deserves a second chance..I suppose that's fair enough..But what about a third chance?Does everyone deserve a third chance?

Up's and Down's

2010-02-13T10:29:00.000-08:00

There's is no straight road,
Our life aren't always perfect,
There's always up's and down's,
Thing's aren't what they seem,
But we gotta stay strong,
And do what's best.

You Told Me - Ice Xellia

2010-01-30T05:37:00.000-08:00

Long ago,
You told me,
People change with time,
Tell me now,
Had you change,
Did you change.

You told me,
You'll never leave me,
For a guy,
You told me,
You'll have to first travel the whole damn world,
To find a girl like me,
Tell me now,
Had you travelled,
Did you travelled.

I'm special,
That's what you told me,
That no one can,
Make you smile,
Just like I do,
You never felt this way before,
Never felt so happy,
Being with someone,
You told me.

Cant believe this is real,
Like living a dream,
That's what you said,
Isn't that what you said my baby.

I'm special,
That 's what you told me,
That no one can,
Make you smile,
The way i do,
Can't believe this is real,
Like living a dream,
That's what you said,
That's what you told me.

Risk - Ice Xellia

2010-01-30T05:03:00.000-08:00

All on my mind,
I thought,
Was you and me,
I thought you were real,
That you were my best friend,
I thought you were someone,
I thought someone can finally cure me,
Only to find myself,
Getting hurt once again.

Chorus: Was everything an illusion
Was everyjthing a dream
Should I forgive and risk getting hurt
I'm confused
Should I forgive you my baby
And risk getting hurt
Should I forgive
Should I forgive

Thought you were real,
Thought you were someone,
Thought someone can finally cure me,
Only to find myself,
Getting hurt once again,

(Chorus X2)

When did I become so weak,
So vulnerable,
Where is my strength,
When did I become so weak,
What had you done to me,
So vulnerable,
Where is my strength,

Even though I hate to admit it,
You've changed me into human,
Emotionless to human,
That's what you did to me,
Even though I hate to admit it
I know i still love you.

2010-01-05T05:40:00.000-08:00

WeLcome 2010

So Near Yet So Far - Ice Xellia

2009-12-20T08:48:00.000-08:00

Seconds turns to minutes,
Minutes turns to hours,
Hours stretch to days,
Days became weeks,
Its so hard to smile nowadays,
Wondering when,
Can I see you again,
I miss you so...

Breaking heart

2009-12-04T09:09:00.000-08:00

My heart seems to break,
Like a crystal fallling down,
Breaking into many shards,
These tiny sparkling pieces,
If you're not carefull,
You might get hurt,
The pain you'll experience,
That's how it feels like,
When my heart seems to break.

Dovey Sound..-.-''

2009-11-03T22:15:00.000-08:00

She reached out towards him..Her hand held the side of his face..She felt really happy..She didn't looked backwards..Smiling,she slowly let go and walked away..

2008

2009-10-26T04:58:00.000-07:00

This is the ferris wheel at the at Titiwangsa Lake..It was evening when this picture was taken..

Taken On The 7th September 2008

2009-10-26T04:20:00.002-07:00

Ferris Wheels...at night..Personally I like it better at night...looks more enchanting..(Top left corner,can you see the reflection?Awesome right?)

Lovely lovely colours...I LOVE THESE COLOUrs!!

WHOA....Magnificent...

They create a motions using light rays... This is a droplet on the sky..

Beautiful,nawn?

2009-10-25T23:56:00.000-07:00

As it gets darker....the sun went lower and lower..

But it shows all hope is not lost after all...

Golden ReX? lol

2009-10-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

Calming view

2009-10-24T19:20:00.000-07:00

Song of The Month - September

2009-09-26T09:54:00.000-07:00

1.Heartbreaker - G-Drangon

2.Breathe - G-Drangon

3. Dejavu - SS501

4.Don't Know If I'll Return - 2PM

5. A Song Calling For You - SS501

6.One Love - Super Junior

7. AH - After School

8. 1 Year Station - G-Drangon

9. Diva - After School

10. Always Be Mine - FT Island

My life...now...?

2009-08-18T22:32:00.000-07:00

Hey..I know I haven't post anything about myself except..yea..songs every month..oh and big news! Cascada released their third album(Evacuate The Dance Floor)!For those who like techno and dance songs,I'll would recomend Cascada songs.Their first ablum is called Everytime We Touch and second ablum What Hurts The Most are also pretty awesome.The first album had also win some awards.So clubbers,shufflers,those who like high beat songs,CHECK IT OUT!Here I go again...sidetracked by some music.Okay,back on track,hows my life now..?

Hmm..its been a pretty hectic year.Plenty of stuff happening,good things as well as bad things.Overall,I guessI won't be the same anymore.But no worries,I'm still a song freak.lol.

Oh,let me talk about an outing lo mine in sunway pyramid..about..a month or so ago..

On that saturday,i skipped school although there were extra cocuriculum activities...the reason..?Oh..because my brother's friend was coming to fetch us (me,my brother and my sister) to a party and as my cocuriculum activities ends late,it would be rather rushing and hectic for me to get ready.Anyways,we went to the party(Its held in Sri Kl)and it was already starting(oops).After having some fun,seeing a lot of familiar faces,getting hyper by the music,learned a lot of new songs,(I was really happy when they played the song Check Yes Juliet)and seeing the performances,the party ended.Oh and i gave a friend of mine a present and she was stun(Her birthday is a loooonnggg way to come and I might not see her on that day anyway so i decided to give her on that day)for about a while as I gave it suddenly and wihout warning..I had a fun time laughing seeing her expression anyways.Gracias..lol..

From the party place,we(me,my brother,my sister,my brother's friend AND three of my brother's friends)walked to a nearby place(SS15) to find either a bus or a taxi to take us to Sunway Pyramid.Oh by the way,the dresscode for the party is formal,so you can imagine it was kinda weird and funny seeing 7 teenagers in formal clothings (the boys were wearing slacks and collared shirt with ties while me and my sister were wearing "dresses") walking by the road side. im sure we looked out of place. i think we must have gotten alot of stares by the passerbys that are passing by(its a busy road)not that i would care and notice anyway. After reaching to that place,we quickly found some taxis.We took two taxis to sunway pyramid.then,reaching there,we went to Outfitters Store as two of them wanted to buy shades.We gave some opinions and while they were choosing,me and my sister walked around in the store checking out clothings.After a while,we went to the shades section.One of them had choosen a white frame shades.It was very nice.The other guy however couldn't decide.His choice was between a shade that looks exactly like the other friend had choosen or a unique looking shades.We spent a while helping him to decide.He even asked the saleswoman for her opinion.We were laughing and having fun all the way.FINALLY,after a really llooonnnggg while he decided on the unique looking shades.The guys were really happy as they had beeen finding shades for a long time.We tease them and ask them to treat us dinner as they had just bought new things for themsleves.Groaning,they said they were broke.Then,we went to Asia Avenue.On the way to Asia Avenue,we met with two other of my brother's friends.(They were at the party as well).They talked for a while and then we continued our way.They also told my brother that they saw my brother's good friend with her family in pyramid.However,we didnt get to meet her during our walk.Anyways,I didnt think we went in any store in Asia Avenue,we just walked around,talking and we went into the toilet.The guys took a really long time in there and we girls complained while waiting outside.You can say we hang around at the toilet for a while.=.=''.Then, we met a few of my brother's friends,two girls and two guys(No,it wasn't a coincidence).After talking,we decided to meet up at Kimgaryfor dinner to celebrate some of the friends birthday.The seven of us then went to have some bubble tea drink in a store.On our way out,we saw an escalator.We went up the escalator just for fun as we were wondering what was up there and we could feel cold air at the bottom of the escalator.Going up,we saw that it was an empty hall which we think could be rent to organise events or dinners.Taking the escalator down,I told the guys that I wanted to check out Anatomy as I always wanted to check the store out but I didnt have the time and I like gothic clothes.My brother and his friend however didn't want to go in that store.Their reasons?My brother didn't really like that store while his friend reason was that he was currently wearing the clothes he bought from that store and he will feel akward(I would too if I'm in his position).On the way,we stop we stop by a store where my brother's friend was working part-time during the weekends(its a teddy bear store).The friends we met in Asia Avenue was also there.Continuing our way,the gang split up.Me,my sister and a guy(the one that bought the unique looking shades)went into that store.The others...were..somewhere around..Anyways,the shop was quite small and it wasn't as gothic as I thought it was.After a while,we went out of the store,then..coming up from the escalator aws a shoolmate of mine.She was surprise to see me.Even more surprise seeing me with two guys in FORMAL clothings and a girl.I laughed at the thought of what if she had seen me with the gang.She was rushing to the cinema to watch a movie with her mother so we said goodbye.After a few minutes,we were suddenly joined by my brother and his friend.Two of them had gone to the arcade.So,the five of us went to the store Extreme.In the store,we check out some of the clothes.We were joined by the two other guys a few minutes later.Chatting and walking around in the store,it was already 8 something.So we decided to go to Kimgary.Reaching there,we were the first gang to reach there.The others weren't there yet.After deciding,we went into Kimgary,sat down and wait for the other gang.After a while,they came and we cahnged to a bigger and longer table(there were about seventeen of us).After ordering and eating,it was already 10 something.We sang a birthday song and then cut the birthaday cake.It was a chocolate cake bought from Secret Recipe.Three of the guys from the original gang(7 of us)needed to go back home.As they were rushing,they couldn't eat the cake.(It was thick wth chocolate by the way,rather filling for me)Me,my brother and sister were supposed to be back home by 10 as well.However,my brother's friend(the one that fetch us to the party)parents was coming to fetch us a little late.Saying goodbye,the four of us went to McDonald's to buy some fries and nuggets for my other sister who was at home.Then,we went to Starbucks and meet up with my brother's friend sister.Together,we waited for their mother.By the time we went back home,it was almost 11something.It was a really awesome and intersting day,I really enjoyed myself!I'll never forget that day.

Song of The Month-August

2009-08-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

1.Top Of The World - Big Bang

2.Forever Or Never - SHINee

3.Fantasy Girls - Caprice

4.Give You Hell - All American Rejects

5.Candle(Michitomo Remix) - Big Bang

6.Tetris - 2Pm

7.Real - SHINee

8.Again and Again - 2Pm

9.Hate You - 2pm

10.Stylish(The FILA) - Big Bang

Song of the Month-July

2009-08-06T19:50:00.000-07:00

1.I know You Want Me - Pitbull

2.As long As You Love Me - Backstreet Boys

3.Fire Burning On the Dance Floor - Sean Kingston

4. 1234 - Plain White T's

5.I Got A Feeling - Black Eye Peas

6.Emotion - Bigbang

7.Gara Gara Go - Bigbang

8.21 Guns - Greenday

9.No Boundaries - Kris Allen

10.Obsessed - Mariah Carey

Song of the Month-June

2009-07-04T18:46:00.000-07:00

1.Its you-Super Junior

2.Takin Back My Love-Enrique Iglesias ft.Ciara

3.The Next Door (japanese version) -Exile

4.Break the Ice-Britney Spears

5.Snow Prince-SS501

6.Sugar-Florida Feat. Winter

7.127 Days-Kangta & Vaness

8.Piece of Me-Britney Spears

9.U R man-SS501

10.Sorry Sorry-SuperJunior

Top Ten Songs for May Month

2009-06-21T01:31:00.000-07:00

1.Zero Gravity-David Archuleta

2.Wait For You-Elliott Yamin

3.You Got Me-One block radius

4.Superman-NESE

5.Pocket Full of sunshine-Natasha Bedingfield

6.Take Your hands-DBSK

7.Choosey Lover-DBSK

8.I see you-Rickman

9.Qing Bao-Dason Tang

10.In the sky-Grandia3 soundtrack

Dreams -rule of life-

2009-06-21T01:21:00.000-07:00

Dreams are allowed to be improbable that they are never likely to come true. And don't go thinking you'll never achieve anything by sitting around day-dreaming all day. Some of the most succesfull people have also been those who have dared dream the most.It ISN'T a coincidence.

Just afraid -Ice xellia-

2009-06-21T01:00:00.000-07:00

I try not to get involve with you,
Yeah you know what i mean,
It's just too bad,
That history repeats itself,
Live with it.

I'm lying to myself,
Only I know it,
That I like you as well,
I'm sorry,
I'm just afraid of getting hurt.

I try to think of it as a dream,
But the truth is a fact,
Sitting by the window,
I stare down,
Watching the clouds drift past,
sometimes bright purple,
Sometimes a dull grey.

I am like the cloud,
Sometimes a bright purple,
Afraid of becoming dull grey,
Live with it,
That history repeats itself.

I'm lying to myself,
Only I know it,
That I like you as well,
I'm sorry,
I'm just afraid of getting hurt.

I'm just afraid i might get too attach to you..

Just be happy-rule of life-

2009-06-21T00:57:00.000-07:00

So if you find you are with somebody where there is no big firework display, palpitations and extreme of feelings but there is a baseline contentment of warmth and love -Be happy with that.

Fireworks-rule of life-

2009-06-21T00:52:00.000-07:00

Most of us want to fall madly head-over-heels in love.Big chemistry,fireworks,butterflies,unbelievable feelings.
It's briliant.
It's extreme.
But that intensity can't and won't last.
You have to go back to reality sometimes.
You have to get on with your life.
No one can live at that intensity, that lofty altitude all the time.

A good friend -rule of life-

2009-06-21T00:44:00.000-07:00

Someone once said that a real friend is someone you can be having a conversation with as they get on the plane,you don't see them for ten years and when they arrive back they carry on the conversation as they get off the plane like a moment hadn't passed.That's exactly how it is being good friends. The most important bit is being there....and not just for the good times.

Insonmia

2009-06-21T00:38:00.000-07:00

Will you be strong enough to put out the flame?
Restoring the darkness,
Or will it reborn?
History repets itself.
Not only did it brought back old memories but old pains,
It hurts..
A small portion of my heart darken,numb,
I feel no emotions,
Sometimes in bed,
I feel insonmia,
Just thinking..

Myself -Ice Xellia-

2009-06-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

Sometimes life is so complicating,
There's nothing I can do,
Or maybe the thing that is making it complicating,
It's me myself.

Can I touch the sky,
Can I be alright,
With you,
I'm tired of running away,
How can I find myself,
When will this end.

On this path,
I try to find myself,
The way of discovering,
My e-mo-tions,
Never thought,
Never think,
That I would be this way,
I used to kept it all,
Kept it inside me,
Kept it in a bottle,
That will never break free,
So don't try to reach out to me,
Cause it might break,
My emotions will flow,
And there will be a new me.

Can I touch the sky,
Can I be alright,
With you,
I'm tired of running away,
How can I find myself,
When will this end.

On this path,
I try to find myself,
The way of discovering,
My e-mo-tions,
Never thought,
Never think,
That I would be this way,
I used to kept it all,
Kept in inside me,
Kept it in a bottle,
That will never break free,
So don't try to reach out to me,
Cause it might break,
My emotions will flow,
And there will be a new me.

I used to kept it all,
Kept it inside me,
Kept it in a bottle,
That will never break free..

Emotions -rule of life-

2009-06-21T00:00:00.000-07:00

It certainly doesn't help to be thinking all the time that we have to keep a lid on our emotions or people will think us weak and out of control.

-p.s This describes me, i keep a lid on my emotions most of the time -

You'll never understand everything (2)- rule of life-

2009-06-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

Be curious, ask questions, wonder to yourself, talk to other people if you like - but know that this won't always give you a clear and concrete answer.
Peeople don't always make sense.
Life doesn't always make sense.
Let it go and discover the peace of mind that comes with knowing that you'll never understand everything.
Sometimes it just is.

You'll never understand everything - rule of life -

2009-06-20T23:41:00.000-07:00

People will behave oddly and you won't understand why.
Things will go unexpectedly wrong or right and it won't make sense.
Spend all your time desperately trying to work it all out and you'll drive yourself crazy.
Much better to just accept that there is always stuff that we won't understand and let it go at that.
How simple that is.

Memories- Ice Xellia

2009-05-25T09:46:00.000-07:00

Memories are meant to be kept,
Like a shining star in one's mind,
Sometimes memories are even better,
Than the real thing,
Memories,
They will never fade.

Top Ten Songs For April Month

2009-05-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

1.Insomnia(english version)-Craig David

2.Insomnia(korean)-Wheesung

3.Through The fire and flames-Drangonforce

4.All Systems Go-East Clubbers

5.Box In The Ship-DBSK

6.So Beautiful (English Version) -Big Bang

7.Wu Fa Gu Lei-Derrick

8.Magic Room-183 Club

9.Shonen Onmyouji Ending Soundtrack-Yakusoku

10.Look At Me-Big Bang

Elements-Ice Xellia

2009-05-08T19:35:00.000-07:00

I like the way the breeze blows my hair ,
I like the way the clouds are drifting ,
I like the colour of the summer's evening ,
I like how the wind whisper past my ear..
Hushing....

Haru haru-Big Bang

2009-05-08T19:33:00.000-07:00

Je craindre de(d') moi-meme.
Haru haru ,I became more attach to you.
Will it hurt? Je demander moi-meme.

AND1

2009-05-02T23:28:00.000-07:00

I should have post this a few months ago..but i haven't got the time..I can only apologise.

The AND1 competition was held at Summit.The car park to be exact. Some of the players are TALL! Being small and short in size,they kinda look like giants..lol..i'm exggerating..But you get my point.Standing here,there was blasting music in the background, crowds of people, games BUT the focus was of course..BASKETBALL! Participants have to register at 7.30 am in the morning and each team which consists of three players are given a baketball.There were around 9 courts in total.I went to watch the copetition during the semi-finals.My brother's team lost at the second round.According to him,their team actually has three points but the referee put their points as two.So,yeah..they didn't make it to the third round.My relative was there as well but I didnt see him.He lost at the second round as well.I walked and watched until I focus on one court which is court 1.It was finals (I think)Its girls dont know-what category.It was pretty awesome.Then,there was this memorable thing I couldn't forget.There was only five seconds and this guy has the ball.He shoots... the referee:3..2..1...stop ball! And the ball went in! It was picture perfect..lol..In the end,everyone had fun.

Okay,so that's about it..hope next year's competition would be just as nice and more..au revoir..

groan!!

2009-04-25T23:42:00.000-07:00

Crap..i want Pe lessons!...Its just too bad all PE lessons are canceled..For 3 WEEKS..!..no less...all because of the primary's school sports day..Can you believe it?..I cant..PE lessons are THE ONLY class that I look forward to...Sigh..sad..

Sports Day....

2009-04-18T23:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my sports day.Start the day by waking up at 5 am..yes..5am..its 40 minutes earlier than my usual waking hours on weekdays...but i managed.At 6.15 am,went to school with a friend.Komander was LATe!( for 2-5 minutes).So much for calling us to go early..(roll eyes)..Anyways, we praticed the formation at the car park without any distraction as it was RATHER early.We saw some guys playing basketball, and wonder how can they shoot the basketball as they can BARELY see the hoop.ITS that dark.At 6.45 am,teachers started coming to school and we had to shift to let the cars in.It was almost 7 am when komander called us to go to the field to pratice.It was rather rushing and hectic actually.

The day offically started with the 200 meter finals event.I was shocked when a friend rushed up to me and said that i had to run AGAIN.Imagine, i was supposed to run in a few minutes, and i was in my kawad uniform.How the heck am I supposed to run again?The finals 200 meter for my catergory was actually over during the saringan.Luckily, I wasn't the only one marching and runing.There were three of us, so after some negociating and clearing up the misunderstanding, they agreed to cancel out the event,PHEW!

When we march, it was good but not as good as the kadet polis and uh...krs...From where we were standing, we could see the other teams doing their formation and they were good.We wanted to get over it fast and we told one other not to panic and lose hope.We got in front of the judges and just did everything.There were a few mistakes and there wasn't enough space to do it properly.After the whole process....we waited standing up in the burning sun like the rest of the teams.Then, it started...people fainting.There were a lot from kadet polis, as their uniforms are dark blue.There were two from my team though.Not sure bout the other teams.Ater all the long speeches, ikrar and etc, we could finally move away from the scorching sun...

Quickly changing into my PE clothes, i got into Bluster(my house) tent and right away a teacher tolded me that i should have lapor diri first thing in the morning (which i didnt) as i represent my house..etc..etc..Then, walking around the field, i tried to find my head house teacher to get my number.Only to find a guy had taken ALL the numbers and have teacher rewrote mine.

My event, 4 x 200 meter started after the high jump.I was the first runner for my team and I am so very SORRY...bluster..I was kinda tired ..and i was in second leading for the first 100 meter before the others started to cut in.My other mistake was passing the baton, i have no idea what happened, i didnt pass it properly and the second runner couldn't take it properly.I'm SORRY...sigh..we got fourth..didn't know who got first..probably pc cilin.

After walking around ,chatting and buying drinks.I had completely forgoten about my tarik tali event until they announce it.The first round last for goodness knows how long.For a moment it looks like my team was going to win ..then the next moment we were pulled forward.Halfway through the first round my left leg cramp.It hurt like crap...and the first girl standing for my team cut her finger..We won the first round though.The second was easier and quick.We won!!!! As soon as the second round was over, i quickly got away to an open space to tend to my left leg.It was cramp and i had trouble walking and standing.Sigh...

They announce all the winners and the the winning team of the year IS.....................................MC AFFEE. My team got last...double sigh..

As for marching..the results was SURPRISING, UNEXPECTED and SHOCKING!!

1st Kadet bomba(what!?!? their marching was uh..not so uniform..and their formation was SIMPLE)
2nd Kadet polis(duh..but i thought they would get first)
3rd Pengakap (WOW! consedering they always get last...lol...you guys improved..congrats)
4th Pbsm( sigh..no comment..)
5th Krs( I really thought you would get top 3 at least)

That's the results...and i think this is my THE LONGEST post EVER...
Right now..I having right hip aches and left leg muscle aches...have to go rest....au revoir....

Nice song

2009-04-10T04:21:00.000-07:00

Baby don't cry is a nice song but now i like to listen to why i like you by super junior.It's a nice song! Its all hip and hop.I give it 8/10 rating.That's kinda good.lol

muscle ache

2009-04-10T03:42:00.000-07:00

My blog's dead for a while...sorry...I've been VERY busy for the past two weeks..okay..maybe i'm making excuses but there's training for marching and there's training for sports for one week and the other week is the competition.The competition is held yesterday,wednesday and tuesday and I've been staying back in school for three days straight! Sigh, right now, I'm kinda tired and well...u know the rest.Next saturday is my sports day..yeah !...hope my team can win.hehe.I can hope right? It's saddening to see my team get second last almost every year.I'll post some other things next time, its dinner time already.Au Revoir.

Addicted

2009-03-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

Ooooo..i am currently addicted to a song
It's Baby don't cry by a japanese female singer,Namie Amuro.
Actually, i thought the song was okay.... AT FIRST.
But then as i listen to it some more,i thought 'Hey,it's not bad.Quite nice, actually.'
So yeah, now addicted to it.lol.
Its well i should say ..its a happy type of song, like uh..funky soft type.Not rock,heavy metal,thecno, classical,or jazz. But hey, maybe it can be R&B or pop type?

My TOP 10 list of songs of the month:
1.Baby don't cry(Namie Amuro) (duh.....)
2.Heaven (big bang)
3.Temperature(Sean Paul)
4.Wonderful( big bang)
5.Everytime we touch(cascada)
6.Always(big bang)
7.Loose my breath(Destiny Child)
8.Can't stop the rain from falling(cascada)
9.Zhi dui ni you gan jui (feilunhai)(might have spelling error =P)
10.Drop(East Clubbers)

My outing? oh my friend-big bang

2009-03-17T22:22:00.000-07:00

well...it was fun..!...
For me,that is.Really hope the others enjoy it as well!
I went about 11 something and walked around with friends.
Played archery, almost all arrows went rebound,maybe cause i didnt put enough energy.Walked around sunway pyramid...etc.(detailed:see mapleComic blog)
At 4 something,all my friends went back home.
lol..solo,being a 'lepak' freak, walked from studio R to Jusco,coffee shop.
Ordered kopi O and well...burn my tougue...its HOT...and i was sipping it.

My family met me at coffee shop and we wanted to go pasar malam,but it was raining, no matter, i went to pasar malam on tuesday! However, all the intersting stuff are on sunday.

Back to the topic,so instead on going pasar malam, me and my family walked around sunway pyramid.
So yeah...basically i 'lepak' from 11 something till 10 somthing.lol.

hanging out

2009-03-13T23:20:00.000-07:00

It all started from a friend's idea.
And suddenly, i am organising a gang outing?
lol.It's been a year since i hang out.
Hopefully,it will be fun and i definetly need to escape from all the homework,projects,etc.

On another topic,
i am currently playing dungeon siege.My bro says it looks like ever-so-famous dota game.
im off to clean up the house.
gonna be sooo tiring

ONCE UPON A TIME - Ice Xellia

2009-03-06T07:20:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time,
Far far away,
I've seen you before,
Have you seen me?
Do i look familiar to you?
Cause you look familiar to me.

Maybe I known you from somewhere,
Or maybe not,
You look just like him,
You really do,
But then he's gone,
And you're not
You're here, you're real
Waving and smiling.

Perhaps my mind's playing tricks on my eyes

Cause,
I've seen you before,
Have you seen me?
Do i look familiar to you?
Cause you look familiar to me.

So tell me why,
When I held your hand,
It's like holding his,
Why is it,
That i feel so dejavu,
Like it happen before?

Cause,
I've seen you before,
Have you seen me?
Do i look familiar to you?
Cause you look familiar to me.

Once upon a time,
Far far away...

Remembering the past?

2009-02-20T02:30:00.000-08:00

remember-big bang( i'll try to recomend a song base on the blog)

I was finding somethings i needed when i quite suddenly thought,hey it could be in my box of thing right?

I couldn't find the things i need but i saw things that are now memories from my primary days.

1.my friends biodata books(I have lost contact with ALMOST of my old friends)

2. my sticker book(i use to collect stickers )

3.my stamp book(collecting stamps was a trend wheni was standard four)

4.my FIRST story and comic( i wrote it when i was standard five.I think it's quite okay for a standard five standard.haha.)

all this are part of who i am today.Remembering all memories, i realise it seems like it was like yesterday instead.

or a long time ago?

The rising sea

2009-02-11T22:37:00.000-08:00

Sitting there,
Watching the sky,
Looking at the horizon,
At the beautiful sea.

There she looks,
Watching,waiting,
Then it came,
Slowly at first,
Then rising,
Higher and higher it went.

She didn't move,
Neither does she seems afraid,
She didn't flinch,
Her unmoving eyes,
Closed for the moment.

An image emerge through the water,
She smiles and helds out her hand,
Though to others that see,it was just a rising sea,
She not to be seen.

sigh

2008-08-15T22:50:00.001-07:00

i am hopeless...

innocence...do they still exists?

Teenager ,Ice, wonders.

Its so hard..shall i tell my mother that my brother has a handphone wihout her knowlege? Shall i ?I cant take it anymore..

"Penny for your thoughts",said a voice.

Ice turn and saw her friend ,Jiro.

Her eyes widen."What are you doing here?"

"Just visiting",he said casually.

to be continue...

The horrifying days are TICKING!!

2008-07-26T11:34:00.000-07:00

I have about 78 days left for Pmr.

So,its study ..study and more study..and no,you aren't seeing things.I wrote STUDYING.

Haix.Yesterday i had a latih tubi.Sigh,why on earth are there so many test?!

Save trees!Dont waste papers,eh?

I got to go and study and cant blog so often now,sad..ciao.

P.S. My finger still hurts as the basketball hit the SAME spot the SECOND time.Any remedies anyone?

Rap song-Destination , my second lyrics

2008-07-25T03:40:00.000-07:00

The road to your destination
where the cars move like radiation
thats what the drivers wish for
when they get stuck in
the busy traffic station

But looking in a car
These passengers were different
there took advantage of the situation
thus they played chess
with dedication

While the others used foul language
cant they just be in peace
why all the fuss
when they can just take advantage
of the situation

Soon the cars started moving
towards their destination
soon the busy roads begin to clear
but tomorrow it will be
a busy traffic station

yup..it is creepy

2008-07-25T03:30:00.000-07:00

the tune was create by a friend of mine,

haha.yet.my friends said that the lyrics made their hair stand up

oooooooooooo.....spoooky

its kinda funny,really.

But again,its my first attempt

so,i guess i did okay....

enjoy the lyrics,people.

song lyrics that i had create

2008-07-25T02:33:00.000-07:00

verse:
I fell in love with you
You did wonders to my heart
But then i knew
That you've already liked her
so i stop liking you

Then i fell upon a secret
The secret that was no more
the secret that you too
used to like both of us
How could i had been so blind
was i really that clueless

Then he came into my life
i broke his heart
because deep inside i still couldn't forget you

CHORUS :

I wonder what would have happened
what if i told you
that all i could think of was you
i just wanna be with you

ending:
But now we are strangers
The way you ignore me
made me cry in darkness
that made me wish
i never even knew you

greetings

2008-07-23T23:39:00.000-07:00

I havent been posting lately.

The reason?Well, i am basically busy,doing homework,and studying for the upcoming exam.

So,i guess i have post whenever i am free.Like not now.

I think i'll post on Friday.I mean intersting post.

Ohhh..ya..i wrote a song lyrics yesterday and my friend composed it.Cool,eh?

I'll post the lyrics on Friday!=)